What a great week. My best friend in the whole world graduated a few days ago and in honor of that she had this enormous dinner party with about 80 or so people. I sat next to her at a table full of old friends and her crazy family. We drank and laughed and ate way too much. Its fair to say I had an amazing time. If I can be honest though, I was very much looking forward to the drive home. It was a 45 minute drive which usually sounds dreadful to me but I don’t know why I was itching to just drive. Not something you hear everyday from someone who’s been driving for 4 years. But lately I just want to drive alone. I want to be in the car with nobody to entertain me with small talk or give me their opinion on the song I’m playing. I really just enjoy the loneliness of a drive home after a great night with the people I love. I don’t know if this makes any sense to you but I think its because over the years I have finally come to this place were I am comfortable with myself. I have come to a place were I don’t question my every move or fidget in my chair as I wonder what ill say next. Don’t get me wrong, I have my insecure moments but I am just some were different these days. I am being honest about the way I feel and who I am. There is so much freedom on this road.. I hung out with my friend Michelle today and we just couldn’t shut up. Even with our age difference we just connect in this strange way and truly understand one another. I enjoy her company and who I am around her. I am finding that I want to be around people like this more often. People who’s company you enjoy. People who understand were I’m at like me better this way anyways. People who truly love you and appreciate you for the person you are. Its hard to come across these days. Its hard to be confident in who God made you in a world convincing you otherwise. But its also a great victory for me to say this and actually mean it. I am happy with who I am and were I’m at. And if the people around me can cheer me on and love me along the way? Well that’s just a bonus :)
