Those moments when
Awkward silences and distant “Hellos.” Days like today were your eyes meet hers, making her fully aware of this fragile heart she’s tried to hide. The air feels thick and her head is spinning. She’s got every intention of letting go, but he’s starting to seem like he wants more. She drives home and her walls come down. Its hard to believe its crumbled to this. From strangers to lovers. And now we are back here. We are back at strangers with cordial hellos . She now knows him though. He hates questions and only eats out of bowls. He’s stubborn and picky and everything she wants.. He said he’s always been a sucker for her smile, admitting he wanted her from the start. And now we are back to this. Two people who for a short while were one. Taking a million steps back on this slippery road. Today she remembered and I can feel it in my bones that you did too. You remembered the touch of her skin and the swing of her waist as you danced that chilly night under the stars. You looked her in the eyes and said you liked the way your jacket looked on her. You said you liked the way her nose crinkled when she smiled and the way she looked as she lay asleep with him by her side. Its a bit strange how things can shift. How beautiful moments turn into painful memories which lead to half smiles and a casual hellos as if just a short time ago you were not eachothers everything.. Just like that. Like nothing. She will be alright. How do I know? Actually, I don’t.
