For You
I asked you what you wanted just a while ago. You told me you wanted to run this train till it ran out of gas. Hoping that would be at the end of our lives. That stuck with me. It stuck with me because I feel the same way. 5 months into it and I’m ready to sign up for the next five, hoping they won’t be half as tough as the first ones. These past five months have been a whirlwind to say the least. I have done many things in my short life that I consider to be memorable and beautiful, but falling in love is the most magnificent by far. To truly love another person with every fiber of my being is the biggest accomplishment of all because it means giving all of yourself. What I’m learning now is that love is not selfish. And I, am guilty of being very selfish. Asking for more then I knew you could give me. I can only imagine what it must feel like to want to give someone the world and not being able to. I can imagine how frustrating that has to be. Yet here I am demanding more knowing that my selfish wants simply can’t be met at the moment. Tonight however, I have fallen in love all over again. Because tonight I choose to stand by you and not ask for more then you can give. Tonight I choose to be patient and understanding. I choose to look ahead knowing that there will be something better ahead, but being thankful for what I have at the moment. I am grateful for every kiss, every note with a simple “I love you”, every laugh, every sushi and taco bell night, for every single effort. These past five months I have shown you every part of me. I handed you the broken pieces and you somehow managed to fix them. I can only hope I’ve done the same for you. I strive everyday to be better because I know I am not worthy of your love, and I know you deserve better then mine. Things have been messy and rough and imperfect to say the least, but I can’t imagine my life without you at this point. You have taken me too far. You are my twin, my lover, my superman, my best friend, my soul mate. You are my forever.
